I’ve got questions
You can’t answer
They all tell me don’t
They say leave it
a dead man visits me
and assure’s me
that he will die alone
but I’m too stubborn
that girl wont listen
Nostalgia haunts me
your face drapped over every man I meet
your voice transposed in every broken promise
I’m just trying to untangle your life from mine
your past from my present
your hand from my heart
your head from my mind
why didn’t you try harder
love me or leave me alone
Nothing.
you open your mouth and nothing.
I thought that
you might be so fierce
you would breathe a swarm of bee’s upon me
and I would have to run
and everything they said
would be true
I thought that
Regret would drip from your lips
like golden ink
weeping from a wild squid
caught in a net
and I would put a bowl at your knees
to catch your words as they fell
I would watch it overflow
and take what I needed
but you didn’t scramble to your feet
you didn’t unleash your demons
You didn’t even fill the silence
The space between us is empty
and my great expectations
Are reduced to small shreds
Fragments of memories
Pass through the grate
and the words
from your fathers ghost
Crack like a whip though the night